Saturday, October 29, 2011

where too from here? a dilemma

Hi all,

I realise it's been ages since I posted here... the thing is once I realised where life was headed and kind of got myself there I didn't know what to do with this blog.

You see the blog was initially a way of sorting my own head out on a number of issues and well... a lot is sorted and a bit yet to go.

So where to from here?

Well to get you up to date if you don't already know, I've been living fulltime as Elisabeth for about 5 months now... I work 4 days a week as Ellie, have bought a house, a car and been in surgery as Ellie and well... that's the future....

So do I keep this blog of scottoutofsync? or start a new one of Ellie's life from here..

I'm not totally sure to be honest... but things currently on my agenda include:

1. SRS surgery... in 7 months I'll be 'allowed' to have surgery... I personally can't wait.. but I wonder what it will be like to finalise this transition... I haven't acknowledged certain err.. male bits for many, many years and it is strange to think how it will be to feel right about things with the right bits in place.

2. To BA or not to BA... that is the question... having grown to a neat but small 'b' cup do I want to go up a notch like most TS girls do given the hormones are a little weak... well the answer is yes but do I feel it's worth the cost, pain etc. for what it offers... it's something I am still struggling with.

3. Work - how long do I keep this up... initially it was 6 months maximum which runs out at the end of the year but we'd really benefit from me working longer and I have 8 weeks or so of sick leave which would help with surgery recovery etc. ... so what to di?

Anyway.. . this may well be my last post here.. I'm still tossing things over and may start something new... ie: transition related and less philosophical... I'll see... if you want to feedback on anything past or present please do.. I;d love to hear from you..

Ciao for now...

Ellie :) xo